INHALE LOVE;;EXHALE HATE
its as simple as that.

this is me, this is my life
sit back and watch me create my masterpiece.

 

high-heels-spirit-booze asked
Heyy !! (: Merry Christmas. ♡

merry christmas to you too! :D

1. Will you answer every question honestly?

yessir.

2. Have you ever kissed your best friend?  

yes.

3. Have you ever punched anyone in the face?

not yet.

4. Do you miss anything or anyone?

yes i do.

5. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours?
yes.

6. Who was the last person you talked to? 
kevin.

7. What do you dislike at the moment? 

that its five in the morning and i am still awake.

8. Name one of your friends who is the most like you? 

julio.

9. Do you get butterflies around the guy/girl you like? 

all the time.

10. Will you get married? 

one day.

11. Will you be doing drugs in the near future? 
no thank you.                 

VERY PERSONAL:
1. Are you happy with yourself? 
at times, i am. but of course there are times when i want to change things.

2. Would you change yourself for the person you love? 
i would usually say no, but i think it depends. for example; before i was with handsome, i smoked ciggs, smoked weed and drank, i didnt do all of those often but i still did them but now my ways have changed. i still drink occasionally but i dont smoke anything anymore because of him and because of myself.

3. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?

keep your head up, youve been through so much, you can get through anything.

SECRETS:
1. When did you last cry? 

today, i didnt cry because i was sad or upset, i “happy cried” 

2. Do you believe in religion? 
sure.

3. What is currently on your mind? 

finishing this survey so i can go to bed, getting up at the right time tomorrow and alexander.

DEEP THOUGHTS:
1. Do you think you were raised well?

not when i lived in manhattan, but when i moved to this town, then yes, i think i was raised well.

2. Do you have a secret you’ve never told ANYONE?

yes.

3. How do you handle stress?

it honestly depends, i usually listen to a lot of music, or cry, or hang out with friends.

4. How would you spend your last day alive? 

id spend it with my best friends.

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience? 

both.

6. If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which one would you choose?  

true love.

7. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with, who would you choose? 

theyre already divorced, i chose my grandparents.

8. If you had to choose between having one family member or 5 of your closest friends die who would you pick?

i cant answer this question.

LOVE:
1. Do you know if you’re in love?

i am.

2. The last time you kissed someone - did you picture yourself with them? 

yes.

3. What’s the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?  

trust and loyalty.

4. If your parents didn’t like the person you were dating, would you lose them?

  yeah.              

RANDOM:
1. Do you think best friends can be replaced? 

well friends come and go, from experience i know the bestest of friends could even leave your life, but i dont know if they could ever truly be replaced.

2. Are you the type that would rather stay at other people’s houses or have them at yours?     

others.

3. When is the last time you were truly happy with your life? 

right now.

4. Where was your default facebook picture taken?

on my bed.

5. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it? 

i think so.

6. What is your favorite color?

purple.

7. What do you do when you have a bad day?

blog, listen to music, talk to my friends.

8. Do you really think exes can be “just friends”?

at times.

9. Who messaged you last? 
a few people.

10. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 

a week ago.

11. If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you? 

nope.

12. Do you fall for people easily?

not anymore.

13. Are you quick to start a fight? 

negative.

14. Lyrics stuck in your head? 

IF YOU LIKE IT THEN YOU SHOULDDA PUTTTA RING ON IT

15. Are you tired?

kind of, considering i just woke up.

16. Any friends you’d like to tell how much you appreciate them? 
all of my friends who are currently in my life.


 1. What curse word do you use most often? 

fuck.

2. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep? 
no.

3. Who would you want to be with right now? 

alex.

4. When was the last time you had Starbucks? 

i have no clue.

5. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? 
i know they do.

6. Is anyone in love with you?
alex.

7. Ever cry in public? 
yessir.

8. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? 
both.

9. What’s the weather like? 

cold.

10. Would you ever date anyone covered in tattoos?

i am currently. 

11. Do you pay attention to the calories in the package/box? 
at times.

12. Do you use sarcasm?

sometimes.

13. Do you get along better with the same sex or opposite?

opposite. but I love my girls the most

yesterday, kev, rach, alex and i all went to the city for kevs birthday. it was honestly one of the best days ive had in manhattan. we went and saw the tree, took those cliche “rockefeller tree” pictures, went to the nintendo store, went to toys r us, went to time square and ate dinner at the hard rock cafe. i am so grateful i have these people in my life and that i can make amazing memories with them. 

this adorable couple; my two good friends 
their love for each other is genuine, anyone could tell by seeing these two love birds together. theyre the first ones out of my friends to get engaged, and i couldnt be any happier for them. i wish them so much happiness, and that their lives are filled with love.

this adorable couple; my two good friends 

their love for each other is genuine, anyone could tell by seeing these two love birds together. theyre the first ones out of my friends to get engaged, and i couldnt be any happier for them. i wish them so much happiness, and that their lives are filled with love.

REESE’S CUPCAKES WITH PEANUT BUTTER FROSTING!
made these tonight and they were by far the greatest cupcakes i have ever made. 
i’ve never been a fan of peanut butter unless its on bread with fluff or with bananas and hunny. i made these for my good friend Kevin for his birthday since they’re his favorite kind of candy and they are so incredibly good!
if you wanna try to make them, heres the recipe;
http://wlichty.blogspot.com/2009/03/reeses-cupcake-with-peanut-butter.html

REESE’S CUPCAKES WITH PEANUT BUTTER FROSTING!

made these tonight and they were by far the greatest cupcakes i have ever made. 

i’ve never been a fan of peanut butter unless its on bread with fluff or with bananas and hunny. i made these for my good friend Kevin for his birthday since they’re his favorite kind of candy and they are so incredibly good!

if you wanna try to make them, heres the recipe;

http://wlichty.blogspot.com/2009/03/reeses-cupcake-with-peanut-butter.html

MY BEST FRIEND GOT A TUMBLR! I AM A HAPPY CAMPERRRRRRR!

MY BEST FRIEND GOT A TUMBLR! I AM A HAPPY CAMPERRRRRRR!

i don’t really have anyone to talk to anymore, so ill talk to my tumblr

a lot has been on my mind;

mainly my mother. she hasnt really been a good mother figure, for all my life, shes been a drug addict. she was active in my life until the seventh grade and then she kind of vanished. it wasnt until two weeks ago that i saw her. my grandmother and i received news that i never wanted to hear. i never wanted to receive a call that had to do with my mother being hurt in any kind of way but i did. she apparently had a heart attack, I’m guessing from drug use, when doctors tried to revive her, some oxygen didn’t get to her brain so now she has brain damage. her symptoms are mainly memory, she knew who i was, but at first she thought i was twelve, probably because the last time i saw her, i was twelve. the beautiful woman who i had remembered was gone. in front of me was a woman in a wheelchair, teethless and old looking. i think thats what hurt the most, that i didn’t recognize her at first. the visit was very moving and upsetting for me, i think I’m still trying to deal with the pain from it. i want to visit her again, but i know its going to hurt still, and I’m afraid to hurt that much again. 

another thing on my mind is friends;

i feel like i don’t have any anymore. i haven’t put any effort to hang out with anyone and i know thats my fault. my boyfriend doesn’t like any of my friends so lately, I’ve only been hanging out with him, and three of our other friends. i know i put myself in this situation, because i chose my boyfriend over my friends, its hard to be in this situation because I’ve lost him a few times and i just cant lose him this time so ill do anything to keep him and things have been great between us, from what i can tell at least. 

i guess i just don’t know what to do; i adore the times when im with him, and i see him a lot but when im not with him, i feel so alone.